Hello friends,
I'm feeling a little heavy-hearted, so I thought I'd take advantage of my somber mood and share an equally somber page.
To me, this is my most personal page ever, even moreso than "bring on the rain." It's funny because by posting this page, I feel like I'm pouring my heart out, making myself exposed and vulnerable. But this page doesn't actually say anything. It's just song lyrics that millions of people have heard, and a photo that hundreds (hundreds? Maybe that's an exaggeration.) of people have seen. Plus, it has sparkly glitter letters. How somber can it be?
But when I look at it, I don't see lyrics and a photo. I think of the day that I listened to that song at work on my shuffle at least two dozen times in a row while taking deep breaths and repeating to myself, "it's ok, it's ok, you're ok..." Sigh. And then the afternoon that I made the page when Dave set up the card table in the living room so I could scrapbook while we watched an Alfred Hitchcock movie. He stacked the couch cushions on top of each other for my chair. I had to climb over the back of the couch to get to the table!
Coming back to my point, have you ever felt like you're in a dark tunnel, and there's no light at the end? You just don't see when it will pass? That's how I felt. It was last year, and it's gone now, but it was tough at the time. I made this page as a reminder that yes, it sucked, but I could get through it, did get through it.
Supplies: Patterned paper: Jenni Bowlin, Lily Bee. alphas. flower, brad: Making Memories. Ink: Tim Holtz. Solid paper, pen.
Of course, it's a fake smile, and I was listening to the song (Erin McCarley's Pony (It's OK)) while I was taking the self-portraits. I used my own handwriting because it's more personal. And even though it's not my own journaling, I know what it means.
Since life isn't all rainbows and cartwheels and snow cones, it's important to me to record at least some of the...storm clouds. My method of choice is obviously in code via song lyrics. It helps me to remember that tomorrow and the day after that will come, and everything looks different in the morning.
Here's to getting through the tough times. Cheers.
Song: "This Too Shall Pass" by Ok Go. Incidentally, they have two amazing videos for this song, the first with the Notre Dame marching band, and the second with a Rube Goldberg machine. If you like that, you'll love them on treadmills.
